Saturday, March 25, 2006

life...and ramblings

so as i sit here in my room with lo at 12:30am after chillin with friends, i am typing up my resume. No, don't worry, i'm not applying for jobs yet but merely a class assignment. However, as I work on this, i am constantly reminded that my resume is worthless...in the end, nobody will care what i was involved in and what i wasn't and who i was friends with and who i wasn't or how cool i was or wasn't, and believe me, i have no idea how to be cool. i can only be me, which is actually a lot of times probably pretty awkward:) embrace it. i have. while these little things in life seem meaningless, they serve as a reminder of my purpose...my purpose in life as a college student at a&m, and in the organizations and other things i am involved in, and anything else and how they come in to play with the main purpose. I'm reading a wonderful book right now called Practice of the Presence of God by Brother Lawrence, who was a dishwashing monk for 40 years. He's so tight. The Lord's been showing me so much through reading his book about simplicity. Funny that I would write about that in the midst of all my busyness right now, but it's what i'm learning. How in the middle of life' s craziness to just come and sit at the Father's feet every moment of every day and the idea of surrendering it all to Him. It blows my mind. This book has served as a reminder for me. A reminder that if whatever this thing in my life is is not serving the Lord's purpose for me on this earth, then why am I bothering with it? I think the Lord can use the littlest to the biggest things in life to reveal himself to us, everything from a well-done movie (note well-done:) to a sunset to a smile to a song to a facebook message. How tight is that? Our God is not bound by culture (yet he doesn't change to yield to culture) and his purpose for me here in 2006 is the same as it was for the Christians in the early church. And why? Because life is not about me!!!! Christ is it. One of my favorite parts of Bro Law's book is when he talks about how God's will sometimes brings us pain and sometimes immense pleasure, but if we're seeking his will it doesn't matter the outcome. We just want God's will. And that, is what I so desperately desire to take hold of and what I desire for the church of Jesus Christ to take hold of as well. Press on my brothers and sisters, and pray for each other. sorry lots of ramblings... :)